Sunday, May 11, 2003
Can I go to sleep now and maybe wake up in another time or another place? That would be helpful.
Things are settling. I do not look forward to tomorrow. I feel like I'm walking on a mine field right now, and going to see my mother -- who likely doesn't know her granddaughter died -- isn't going to be easy. On the other hand, it would be worse if she did know. Her health is not good, and she's had several heart attacks and two strokes over the last few years. No one is telling her anything until we've had word from her doctor and all the precautions that can be taken have been.
On the other hand, it may well be that my sister has called her anyway. I don't know.
I'm still working on Ruins, a little bit at a time. Escape. It works.